It has been about 2 weeks. The feelings of regret and depression have sunken in deeper. For some nights and early mornings, I have bouts of panic attacks.
In the mornings, I wake up with a splitting headache and lethargy is written all over my body and face, followed by irregular heartbeats and cold, clammy hands. Worse is when I feel the knots in my chest tighten and I stop breathing naturally.
The badgering thoughts of what-ifs and what-nots are too overwhelming. The more I try to avoid the fact, the deeper it is the grave I’m digging. Have I just sold my youth and soul at an unfair exchange?
I may need more time to resurface from my slumber. After years of lying idle and rusty, I can no longer summon the strength to run without panting like a weak dog. I’ve fallen into the trap of inertial incapacity.
I know I’ve misplaced my mojo somewhere, and I am determined to get it back! I can hear the clock ticking away and my time is running out.
It's 4am in the morning. I thought the effects of the temporary high would have kicked in. But instead, it has worn off without even warming up. So fuck it.
In the mornings, I wake up with a splitting headache and lethargy is written all over my body and face, followed by irregular heartbeats and cold, clammy hands. Worse is when I feel the knots in my chest tighten and I stop breathing naturally.
The badgering thoughts of what-ifs and what-nots are too overwhelming. The more I try to avoid the fact, the deeper it is the grave I’m digging. Have I just sold my youth and soul at an unfair exchange?
I may need more time to resurface from my slumber. After years of lying idle and rusty, I can no longer summon the strength to run without panting like a weak dog. I’ve fallen into the trap of inertial incapacity.
I know I’ve misplaced my mojo somewhere, and I am determined to get it back! I can hear the clock ticking away and my time is running out.
It's 4am in the morning. I thought the effects of the temporary high would have kicked in. But instead, it has worn off without even warming up. So fuck it.


